Awakening

Awakening, December 2015

Clearly the boy doesn’t think he has to be tough all the time. In fact he is such an emotional and thoughtful little person that we honestly don’t know where he gets it from. His innocence is everything to us, and we never wanted to share any of it — until now.

Navigation

Navigation, August 2016

We could be described as modern nomads, but that wouldn’t be quite right. While we are always looking ahead we are more intent to enjoy the present, which is why we like to move around so much. And by move we mean experience, however local.

Observation

Observation, December 2016

Our similarities make it easy. Despite the outward appearances, we are both reserved, thoughtful and shy, so we find each other’s uncommon validation very comforting. In spite of two totally different histories, we merged seamlessly, and I will never regret that it took thirty years for us to find each other, because until we met we weren’t ready. Now we are both living the lives we always wanted, and our reinforcement gives her a strength I didn’t account for.

Foreign

Untitled #5, 2017

I have no home. I have a current dwelling place with two dudes that get me. They legit get me. Where they are I will be.

Changes

Changes, March 2017

The worst day of my life was when I saw the look my dad gave me when I told him I was pregnant. I told him and he literally just looked at me, turned around and didn’t speak to me for 2 hours. When he finally came to talk to me I thought he was going to yell and scream at me. Such a silly thought to have, I did not grow up with parents that yelled and screamed at each other much less their children. He hugged me and started crying and saying how he only wanted the best for me. I just held him back crying saying “don’t cry daddy, don’t cry”.

Decisions

Decisions, June 2017

We first confronted our differentness 2000 miles away from home, at two in the morning in the middle of a four day weekend. It started over a simple card game the day before when I politely dismissed a couple people sharing the house with us, friends of friends who had a difference in opinion over the rules.

Mundane

Mundane, January 2018

We sat by the lake and ate lunch as he read from the book we have been reading together daily as a family. The boy was intently listening as he shoved a stick in the dirt all the while feeding his face. I crunched my meal while listening. Taking the moment in and realizing what was happening.

Impermanence

Impermanence, January 2018

While we spend a great deal of time pondering the past and planning for the future, neither of them is occurring right now. The only time we ever live is in the present, but the present is elusive, changing in each nanosecond; we cannot stop the flow of time to examine a fixed present moment.
AJAN MUNINDO

Reflection

Reflection, March 2018

And since we are monogamous we choose our mates with a purpose since we can’t be totally honest about ourselves, even though we rarely know who that is. Perhaps total self-awareness is impossible, but a well-matched mate provides a mirror to help decode your origin, if you care to know it.