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Maybe I should tell her more often how much I appreciate the direction she gives our lives, but that isn’t usually how we converse. It’s my fault. Normal my bland words sound like, “I love you,” but I really mean much more.
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It must have been ten degrees or so outside when we painted this wall in the garage, but we didn’t mind the weather. We took some images of ourselves in front of it a few days later, even though our socked feet were numb from the nearly-frozen concrete. Sometimes we pay a strange price for leaving the creative stream.
I think she knows how difficult thoughtfulness is for me. She probably also knows that without her I would spread mine thin, and structure everything, which means I would likely care more than I should about some things I should not. She gives me the freedom to be apathetic, and the desire for improvement. Believe it or not, those are important qualities in a creative space. Well, they are for me.
We’ve been here together nearly two years, and most of it under the confines of a social distress we don’t relate to. It has made us stronger. I look forward to getting back into a familiar creative flow with her, making shit, and being inspired by our selves and not others.
Do not think about winning or losing, do not think about pride and pain…. The biggest mistake is to anticipate the outcome of the fight. You should not think about whether it ends in victory or defeat. Let nature take its course, and your weapons will be used at the right time.